I see a new mom With a baby And a piece of me thinks Maybe But deep inside of me I don’t feel that ache I don’t long To be a mom I don’t wish to see my baby grow And watch them change And experience life I don’t wake up at night Wishing I […]
I was off of work for eleven days in a row. Eleven glorious magnificent magical wonderful days. Days where I rested and relaxed, did what I wanted to do, slept in, stayed up late. All those fun things you get to do on your day off. Today is my first day back at […]
I was recently diagnosed with fibromyalgia. It is a big scary word that to me, is a life sentence. And it is odd how to journey to being diagnosed came about. If you don’t know what fibromyalgia is, lets start with a definition. If you go to google and type in the word, […]
I had my weekly appointment with my therapist to discuss how I have been doing lately. And is that not a fun question to have to ask yourself? Under normal circumstances sure, but in the middle of a pandemic where it feels as though my country is literally ripping itself apart at the seems […]
Staring at the shadow soaked ceiling
Lost in my thoughts
They overwhelm me
Questions of what ifs and whys
Compete for headspace
“I don’t hate myself,” she whispered as she stare at her fingertips. The purple nail polish she had painted on them mere hours ago was already chipped and faded. In her entire life, she could not remember a time where she had not scuffed her freshly painted nails almost immediately. “Ok. It is not hate, […]
Alicia Jeanne 