Thought Monster and Gloomy Goblin

                Lately I have been having this panic inducing tightening in my chest.  And I know it is not a heart attack.  Instead, it is anxiety.                  At the current moment I feel like I have so much on my plate that I am never going to get finished.  Some days it feels like I […]

First Baby Step

Have you ever done something so trivial to other people, and yet so scary to yourself that it set your heart racing?  You sit there, in your chair, staring at the monitor screen of a computer, the options splayed before you, barely more than a click away.  A computer mouse click you have made millions of times before, but suddenly seems impossible.  A daunting task that makes you want to scream and run away in terror.

Learn the lesson

They say you have To learn the lesson Of what life really is Cold and cruel Sweet and kind A desperate mix To blow your mind They say you have To learn the lesson Of what you can truly be Nothing more Than a little ant Roaming through the street But the lesson I’ve learned […]

Growth

I’ve been stifled by My desire to grow And with the desire No Change Happened I’ve been so focused on the idea Of what growth is and what growth could be That i didn’t take the time to see What growth i could achieve And with no growth I’ve stayed Trapped here till the end […]

Procreate

It was called procreating.  Pro creating. It seems like such a fun word doesn’t it?  Like two people working together to create something else.  Its seems like it should be beautiful.  It isn’t. I live in a world that is small.  I started in the infant pits, with no mother, and no father.   Yes, it […]

It Changed Me

It changed me Falling in love and falling out of it It changed me And not for the better It hurt me It maimed me And at the end of the day It claimed me I sank down so far into depression That climbing back out Was like climbing up a sheer cliff With no […]

She Fell in Love

She fell in love with him She closed her eyes Stood at the edge of the cliff Braced herself And jumped She held her breath Exhaled slowly And let the whistling wind Caress her cheeks As she fell She fell in love with him And she didn’t know why There was no exact moment She […]

Fight for the future

Maybe you don’t understand And maybe that’s ok As long as you understand I made it through the day I wrestled with my own emotions And at the end of the day I finally won But that doesn’t mean The war is over It’s only just begun As I will wake up tomorrow The empty […]

What does Maybe mean?

Maybe – So many hopes And so many dreams Hinge on the word Maybe – And if that maybe could mean Everything What would your maybe be? Would it be the eternal love That never dies The flame that melts so slowly And the wax drips off so sweetly That It forms another candle Rather […]