Writeober 2020 – Prompt 1 – Scroll

She held the scroll with trembling fingers. Her mother had told her this day would come. Had told her to be prepared to receive it. How could something so small, be so intimidating? Just simple brown parchment curled up, a blue was circle imprinted with the King’s crest holding it shut. “Casey, you have to […]

Windchimes

You asked me to hang windchimes And I did Even though I hate them The thought of them Blowing in the breeze Irritates me The sound of them clinking A grating in my ear That I don’t want to hear Yet I hung them It is not my house But will always be my home […]

Rap Tap Tap…

              I had my weekly appointment with my therapist to discuss how I have been doing lately.  And is that not a fun question to have to ask yourself?  Under normal circumstances sure, but in the middle of a pandemic where it feels as though my country is literally ripping itself apart at the seems […]

Trista – Part 1

“I don’t hate myself,” she whispered as she stare at her fingertips.  The purple nail polish she had painted on them mere hours ago was already chipped and faded.  In her entire life, she could not remember a time where she had not scuffed her freshly painted nails almost immediately.  “Ok.  It is not hate, […]

Burning In My Blood

There is a burning in my blood It burns so hot Runs so deep I cannot escape Why is it burning Why do I feel this deep seated pain? Burning my gut Yearning to emerge What do I want? I want more More of everything More of the desire to succeed More of the talent […]

First Baby Step

Have you ever done something so trivial to other people, and yet so scary to yourself that it set your heart racing?  You sit there, in your chair, staring at the monitor screen of a computer, the options splayed before you, barely more than a click away.  A computer mouse click you have made millions of times before, but suddenly seems impossible.  A daunting task that makes you want to scream and run away in terror.

A Journey to Self Hatred

I didn’t just wake up And hate myself It wasn’t the first time I stood in front of a mirror Assessing my body with a trained eye Looking for every flaw Anything I had I could criticize It is not the first time I saw them The stretch marks marring my stomaxh My sides My […]

Learn the lesson

They say you have To learn the lesson Of what life really is Cold and cruel Sweet and kind A desperate mix To blow your mind They say you have To learn the lesson Of what you can truly be Nothing more Than a little ant Roaming through the street But the lesson I’ve learned […]