My depression kicked my butt today

                Do you know what I hate?                 I was playing a game with my best friend, a game we have invested multiple hours into, a game I love playing with him.  Not only do I love playing the game with him, but it is also time where he and I get to talk and […]

Sweet but Bittersweet

                I had my best friend stay over at my house the other day.  Not only my best friend, but his boyfriend as well.  It is a new relationship between them, and watching them together is so sweet.                 Well, it is sweet but bittersweet as well.                  I have mentioned it before, but my […]

Fight to the death over laundry

                Ever have one of those fights with your significant other that you replay in your head over and over again, getting angrier and angrier with each replay?  One of those fights where the other person is so clearly in the wrong, you just want to throttle them into the correct answer?                 My husband […]

My daydream affair with Sven

                I had a moment the other day.  One of those moments that when I first got married I naively thought “That won’t be me.”  Poor poor naïve Alicia.                  It was always kind of a joke growing up, and even now, well into adult hood.  That the woman fantasizes, day dreams, for a day […]

Lick Victim

                My husband and I met five years ago.  Obviously, it worked out, and we have been together ever since, and five years later I would like to think he and I are still reasonably attracted to each other.                  And by reasonably attracted, I mean to say, far more bluntly, that we still have […]

Food is my armor

                For as long as I can remember, food has been my savior, and at times my captor too.  No matter what swirling vortex of emotions cascaded through my body, I had food there to help me cope.  Bad day?  Pint of ice cream to take the edge off.  Good day?  Celebratory taco!  Family get […]

Am I dying?

                Anyone else have that one thing happen that is kind of like a kick in the teeth?  It leaves you sucking in air, grasping for a thought to latch onto to keep yourself calm?  With everything that has been going on inside of my body, I have been getting a ton of blood tests.  […]

I am tired.

                Anyone else tired of being tired?  And I don’t mean mildly sleepy, ready to curl up for a nap.  I mean bone weary exhausted, ready to nod off at your desk, head against the wall, power nap in the elevator.  Is that just me?                 In addition to being tired, is anyone else tired […]

My diagnosis

                I was recently diagnosed with fibromyalgia.  It is a big scary word that to me, is a life sentence.  And it is odd how to journey to being diagnosed came about.  If you don’t know what fibromyalgia is, lets start with a definition.                  If you go to google and type in the word, […]

Writetober – Prompt 5 – Bow

                She held the box tightly in her hand.  Wrapping it had gotten her heart racing to the point she couldn’t focus.  The paper was bright blue with snowflakes.  Around it, she had tied the most perfect red bow she could.                 Inside was her pregnancy test.  After six years of trying, fertility treatments, and […]